I was jut sitting down to write in the living room… our little dog snuggled up to me, my coffee in one hand. I was thinking about how much I love this silent time of day-when the kids are off to school and grandparents have been woken up, gotten ready for the day, and have had breakfast. It was a glorious and still moment. And the doorbell rang, and I realized it was the OT for Grandpa. I had momentarily forgotten about the 8:30am appointment! The silence was broken and I was up and at it again.
I’ve been struggling to keep up with my personal Advent readings. There is never a “good” time. There is non-stop laundry, literally. (I haven’t had time to get out and walk these past few weeks, but I keep telling myself that since our laundry is in the basement all of those steps count for something!) But the other night, after a stressful day and some anxiety settling in on me, I had sent a text to some friends asking them to pray, that God would speak so clearly and that His peace would be so evident, and all of the big spiritual things. They said of course, and offered encouragement and off to bed I went.
I woke up the next day and decided that instead of packing lunches I would catch up on the Advent reading. Picking and choosing in this season, you know? Anyway, I read it and the very first verse was a direct answer to my prayers, speaking peace to my soul. I read the accompanying devotional writing and it too was a direct and clear answer to prayer. I chuckled and sent the screenshots of verses and words to my friends and said, “Sometimes we ask God to speak and He’s like READ THE BIBLE.”
This is a season where all of us are giving more than usual from reserves that are tapped out. We want to buy all of the gifts but we don’t have any more money this month than we did last month. We try to get to all of the parties but we don’t have any more time this month than last month. We want to enter into those difficult family situations but maybe we don’t have any more patience for it than we did last year. In fact, we are already overdrawn in so many ways and keep looking to withdraw more. And in this month, we also think we are going to experience Jesus more than any other month but we just don’t leave Him any room. Familiar? We don’t have room at these inns for Him-they are overbooked, overbusy, overcrowded, and overdrawn.
There’s always something competing for our affections and I think it gets worse this time of year. There will always be interruptions and inconveniences. Sometimes we’ll choose well and sometimes we won’t. While we’re asking Him to be present and speak, let’s also know that He is present and He is speaking, and we need only listen. Whether we’re spending time in His word or spending time in prayer or worship, He is already there.
Praying for myself, and for each of you that read this…that we would choose Him over packing lunches when we need to. That we would leave some things undone so that we don’t become undone, and that we would extend grace easily.